The Winter Solstice

As the year draws to a close and as I feel the strong energy of the winter solstice today, I wanted to take a moment to pause and reflect. I have given a lot of thought to this year and it’s highs and lows. I have sat with a lot of heavy emotions. I have had moments of pure bliss and excitement. I have laughed as much as I have cried (a lot of both). It has been a year of extremes.

The winter solstice is a reminder of transition. It is the longest period of dark and the shortest period of light each year. It marks our slow march into spring and the longer days ahead. Spiritually and cosmically, there is a lot in play with the Great Conjucture today but for those who do not subscribe to that, the solstice is a time to reflect on the past and what we can leave behind and set intentions for what we hope to receive.

I thought I’d share some of my mine with the hopes that you write a list of your own. 
 

What I am leaving behind:

1. Toxic relationships. People automatically think that toxic relationships means that toxic people are involved. And sometimes that is true. But usually it is a relationship where boundaries cannot be respected and energies are purely not aligning. I have certainly been a part of a few toxic relationships this year. These relationships were toxic solely because egos and defensive walls were stopping people from being authentic. People who are deeply aligned with who they are have zero problem admitting their flaws and negative behavior. And it is not easy being this way- trust me! Ignorance is bliss sometimes. But those people who live by ego and cannot face the shame of their actions to admit flaws and work on toxic behaviors aka what they are bringing to the table, are people not worthy of my energy. Luckily, those people tend to get rid of themselves (usually while placing blame on others- watch out for them). Adios toxicity! You are no longer allowed at my table.

2. Questioning my worth or being put in situations where my worth is compromised. We all have the inner critic that cuts us down and makes us believe that we deserve less than we do but I am leaving her behind. I am leaving behind any situation or person who makes me question my magic, my purpose and my place on this planet. If something or someone is making me feel less than, sayonara!

3. The idea that busy equals productive or successful. As a small business owner, I feel like I’m constantly not doing enough. I think we probably all feel that way. And I’m over it! I find it so difficult to set boundaries on my time/work schedule. I could work 24 hours a day and still not feel totally accomplished but I realized I’m holding my successes against society. We applaud busy & stressed. We all try to one up our crazy chaotic schedules. But I’m going to start counting my lazy downtime as my barometer for success. The more I recognize my need to withdraw from my busy schedule, to avoid burnout, the more in tune I am with myself. So goodbye self-imposed pressure!

4. Letting go of situations that I cannot control. Duh, we cannot control any situation, yet we all try to. I have spent a lot of time sitting in regret this year; something I'm not used to doing. And with every situation or conversation that makes me feel heavy, I realize I have zero control over the outcome, yet I am carrying the weight of the problem. Why? Why do that to myself? I have to learn to allow things and people to flow on their own paths and not drive myself crazy trying to spin situations to make me feel comfortable. Because that is why we try to control things- to put ourselves at ease. I am letting go of that need to control. 
 

My intentions:

My intention is to always approach any situation as my best self. I’d say I’m 85% doing that already. There are certainly moments (daily) that I am not proud of myself. There are moments of shame, embarrassment, ugliness and I’m ok with that. No one is perfect. But for all of those humbling moments, I pray that I learn to be better and do better.

I want my life to be surrounded by love and not fear.

I want to recognize moments of insecurity and judgment as a call to action and not allow them to fester.

I hope to find deeper parts of myself through vulnerability. I hope to find deeper parts of myself through loss and sadness. I hope to find deeper parts of myself through laughter and joy. Because just like the extremes of this year, we cannot appreciate, accept or understand the light without the dark.

On a purely surface level, I want Maikana to grow and thrive. I hope the ideas I have planned for 2021 find their way into existence and acceptance. And with that,  I hope I can learn to balance my work drive with my personal life. I hope I can find positive balance across all aspects of my life. 

Setting intentions is not easy. Letting go is just as difficult. But if you can imagine the very best and beautiful life you want to achieve- you’re going to have to learn to do both. Your powers of manifesting is immense if you can learn to clear your pathways. And your ability to let go and move through difficult situations is a testament to where you stand today. We have all survived our most difficult days and hopefully we find the grace and strength to continue to do so. 

Try to find a moment today to set an intention and remove a block from your life. If you can, write it down and keep it somewhere you can reread it from time to time. They are nice reminders to keep you on your true journey. 

I hope you all are enjoying the winter holidays. With the unrest in the world, it’s a very different picture than we are used to. But try to focus on the positives. If you are healthy, be grateful. If you have a roof over your head, be grateful. If you have heat to warm your body, be grateful. If you have clean water to drink, be grateful.  If you have food in your fridge, be grateful. And most importantly, if you have love in your life, be grateful.

Focus on the love- being it and sharing it- and the universe will reward you. 

Happy winter solstice & holidays! 

All my love, 

Jamiesonxo