Are you the director of your life?

Recently, I’ve been really analyzing my choices over the past couple years. I’ve been looking into the humans I put energy into. I’ve been looking at what things in my life really make me feel good and what or who doesn’t elevate my spirit. I’ve been reevaluating what feeds my creative energy. I’ve been putting aside other’s opinions or “normal” societal views in lieu of what sets me on fire. I’ve been very focused on each of my steps and diverging roads ahead to choose the paths that will bring me more joy and help me create a life and character that I am proud of. I am working on being the sole director of my life.

I am not sure if we spend enough time focusing on this. A lot of the time we do the things that have been conditioned in us since childhood. We think that conditioning is who we really are, but when we really sit and meditate on “what do I actually want or desire outside of the box I was born in", we start to see the world differently. We start to contemplate the life we are building. Because we are the directors of our lives.

Within this idea though, we have very little control over anything in the outside world. We like to think we do. We like to think people or situations will change to fit into our lives, but unfortunately when that doesn’t happen, we must look at what we can fix or shift within us. That is our only control- our own behaviors, thoughts, words and choices. This is where becoming the director of your life plays in. If you don’t like how you treat others, how you’re being treated, your work situation or your relationship…work to fix it. Make a plan and stick to it. Follow through. The world is always going to flow around you, outside of your control, but if you want something badly enough, you will figure out how to make it work.

I do also believe that magic and fate and some things are just meant to unfold exactly as the universe planned. We are meant to meet certain humans and have certain interactions but through all of it, we have free will. And the question is: what are you doing with that free will?

Something I notice a lot is people say one thing but do the complete opposite. This is living out of alignment with yourself. If you say you hate drama, don’t be the person stirring the pot. If you complain about not having enough money, don’t waste what you have on frivolous things. If you say you don’t like or want conflict, then face situations head on because avoidance always brings something worse. If you say you aren’t happy with your job, then begin the steps to moving into the next phase of your career. But please don’t complain about things in your life and then be the main contributor of those complaints. You have choices every day that can change those issues. Because either you actually DO want to live that way or one day you will get so fed up of your own bullshit, you will choose to change.

Living in alignment is the ultimate goal. You want the desires of your internal world to match the world you are actually living in. The person you see yourself as, should match your words, your energy and actions. And don’t listen to ego or your negative self-talk, this will get you nowhere. We all know that deep inside we want to be versions of ourselves that we are proud of and that create more magic in the world. We want to lay on our death beds and say, “I have no regrets and I lived this life to my fullest potential.” We all want to live in integrity and in alignment with our truest selves. So why don’t we?

Sadly, a lot of us don’t live up to our potentials. I am not exempt from this. I have definitely lived chapters of my life where I was like “what in the actual fuck are you doing Jamieson? Is this the person you want to be? Is this how you want to treat others? Is this how you want to be remembered? Is this what you want to spend your precious time and energy on the planet on?" And so, I sought help. I started therapy. I did more of the things that lit me up inside. I became very self-aware of my actions and words and did my best to live in integrity. I removed people from my life that weren’t in alignment with who I am. I still do that to this day- if you aren’t pushing me and motivating me and treating me with respect and love- you no longer get a seat at my table. Period. I chose to stop being directed by social, work or relational situations and did what served me best, while always doing my best to not negatively affect others.

And sometimes life throws grenades at us. We are constantly being tested by the difficulties of life. In reality, what is actually happening is the universe is giving us the opportunity to practice what we say we are. This is the universe asking you to showcase what you think you are inside to the rest of the world. Rather than being defensive, lying, bitter, “woe is me” or angry with situations, you have the opportunity to step the eff up. So what is stopping you from stepping up in your life? What is preventing the shift to stop taking a back seat to your life and becoming the driver? Always remember that you are ultimately your biggest limitation in life. So do your best to not feed into your self-limiting talk and go out and tackle all that is thrown your way with integrity and alignment.

The best part yet is that every single freakin’ day on this planet the chance to begin again. A day to choose how you want to show up for yourself, your life and others. A reminder that one day this person you are looking at in the mirror can be a distant memory, a total stranger to the person you have become. You have that choice right NOW. You have the power to begin again and direct your path the way you see fit. You have the power to be the best, most healed, grateful, self-aware, joyful version of yourself. That choice is constantly in your hands. You can choose to walk towards your beautiful future or continue on the path that is keeping you from it. Today could be the first day of a completely new chapter. So the question is, are you going to step up and be the director of a life you truly want? xo